Where WAS I???

I'm baaaaaaaaaack....

Well, I actually never left, I just felt like I had nothing to write about....My sisters wedding was awesome, the summer was CRAPPY, the kids starting school was good, quitting Starbucks was TOTALLY the right decision, going to Winnipeg for my high school friends wedding was a blast from the past and now, life has resumed to normal.

I feel like I'm leading a charmed life this year, four afternoons a week to myself, lunch and coffee dates galore and a renewed feeling of, oh, how can I explain this???? Ok...I'm 31 (almost 32) and the older I get the LESS I care about what people think of me, or what society tells me I should be....thinner, younger, prettier, quieter, richer...and on and on...and I actually....WAIT FOR IT....

AM HAPPY WITH MYSELF.

It's true, I 'should' lose another 30 pounds....but what if I'm actually content being the size I am?? I mean, Calvin and I are probably more in love now than we were when we got married 10 years ago, and if he doesn't care then please tell me WHY THE HECK should I care? I'm not talking health reasons here...I excersise five days a week and eat fairly well, I'm just talking 'outside' issues....beauty issues....anyway, that is my rant for today. If I'm going to stress, it's going to be because my Grandma is essentially handicapped or my Dad is dying, it is SURE as heck not going to be because I have to wear a size 16. PERIOD. Bring on middle age...I'M READY.