14 Years Is Not Too Long
It's been 14 years.
Since I graduated from High School, that is. I thought to myself, hey...I haven't been to school forever, why not START again?
It's true, I am back at school. College to be exact...why you ask? Well, the college here is offering University credit courses now, and they have a certificate program called 'SEA' or 'Special Education Assistant' (which is basically a fancy way of saying 'teacher's aide'). I thought I could maybe start it next September....went to the college and looked into it, only to find out that the first two courses already started in January. Case closed. I thought, well, if it was meant to be, it would be!! RIGHT??? Back to my life...and then...the program co-ordinator called me telling me that they were going to make an exception for me, and I could make up the first two courses later on, so if I wanted to do this program, be at the college Tuesday at 6 p.m. for my first class. HUH??? (Now, keep in mind this was last week) I really didn't know what to do, I talked about it with Heather (because of course, we talk about EVERYTHING) and waited for Calvin to wake up to ask him what he thought. What did he think about his wife going back to school and being emmersed in books for a year? He thought it was a great idea.
I really wanted a job that had hours that would work for me..this is the job.
I really wanted a job that paid well...this is the job.
I really wanted a job with the same holiday's as my kids...this is the job.
I really wanted a job so I could be involved in the school...this is the job.
THEN WHY THE HECK AM I SO SCARED??
Last Tuesday (my first day) I was sick to my stomach all day....I snapped at the kids, yelled at Calvin and couldn't eat dinner...finally, my husband asked me if I was nervous about my first day.
I burst into tears.....who ME??? Nervous? I am one of the most self confident people I know....and I was SCARED.
Calvin calmed me down and told me 'You'll go back and it will be just like high school...you'll be the popular kid again'....to which I responded...'Then WHY do I feel like I'm going back as the FAT KID???'
DEEP CLEANSING BREATHS.
So, I went to the class and felt like shrinking into the floor...but it was fine. Really good actually...I mean, don't get me wrong, the workload and reading are a tad bit overwhelming for someone who has read mostly 'Barney' and 'I'll Love You Forever' for the last seven years but I'm going to do this thing.
I'm going to TRY to do this thing.
I really HOPE I can do this thing.
Oh man...what was I thinking????
Since I graduated from High School, that is. I thought to myself, hey...I haven't been to school forever, why not START again?
It's true, I am back at school. College to be exact...why you ask? Well, the college here is offering University credit courses now, and they have a certificate program called 'SEA' or 'Special Education Assistant' (which is basically a fancy way of saying 'teacher's aide'). I thought I could maybe start it next September....went to the college and looked into it, only to find out that the first two courses already started in January. Case closed. I thought, well, if it was meant to be, it would be!! RIGHT??? Back to my life...and then...the program co-ordinator called me telling me that they were going to make an exception for me, and I could make up the first two courses later on, so if I wanted to do this program, be at the college Tuesday at 6 p.m. for my first class. HUH??? (Now, keep in mind this was last week) I really didn't know what to do, I talked about it with Heather (because of course, we talk about EVERYTHING) and waited for Calvin to wake up to ask him what he thought. What did he think about his wife going back to school and being emmersed in books for a year? He thought it was a great idea.
I really wanted a job that had hours that would work for me..this is the job.
I really wanted a job that paid well...this is the job.
I really wanted a job with the same holiday's as my kids...this is the job.
I really wanted a job so I could be involved in the school...this is the job.
THEN WHY THE HECK AM I SO SCARED??
Last Tuesday (my first day) I was sick to my stomach all day....I snapped at the kids, yelled at Calvin and couldn't eat dinner...finally, my husband asked me if I was nervous about my first day.
I burst into tears.....who ME??? Nervous? I am one of the most self confident people I know....and I was SCARED.
Calvin calmed me down and told me 'You'll go back and it will be just like high school...you'll be the popular kid again'....to which I responded...'Then WHY do I feel like I'm going back as the FAT KID???'
DEEP CLEANSING BREATHS.
So, I went to the class and felt like shrinking into the floor...but it was fine. Really good actually...I mean, don't get me wrong, the workload and reading are a tad bit overwhelming for someone who has read mostly 'Barney' and 'I'll Love You Forever' for the last seven years but I'm going to do this thing.
I'm going to TRY to do this thing.
I really HOPE I can do this thing.
Oh man...what was I thinking????
posted by elliott5inbc at 9:27 a.m.
7 Comments:
Michelle, how very inspiring you are. I think we all need people like you... after pouring 7 years into the most important job you're beginning to see other possiblities and dreams that God has placed in your heart and you are going forward. You have been one incredible example and I know that you are going to be such a blessing to the other "kids" in your class.
Yay! We are really excited for you...
whoa...today is going to be a teary day....
Good luck with school there Michelle. Here's hoping that you rock it...
Oh Michelle!! I'm so proud of you... Going back to school is daunting but so incredibly rewarding. Keep your eye on the prize and you will do great.
Repeat after me: I am not the fat kid. I have great shoes and I'm damn funny. Everyone will LOVE me and I will ROCK THIS OUT!!!!
I'm so proud of you...
That is fan-freakin-tastic! I'm so proud of you. "I'm smart enough, I'm good enough, and gosh darn, people like me!". You are going to rock this school thing. Everyone that I know who has gone back to school in their adult years has been amazed at how good their grades have been.
That is so exciting: good for you!! I wish you only the best in your studies .. Billie is absolutely right: you are an inspiration!
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